what can i say ? it is always nice to receive attention . but to what extent are you willing to put your physical, mental, and emotional well being through to get the attention you want ? and is that the actual kind of attention you want ?
people attempt to pitch me spewed bs all the time and normally i have fun telling them off . but lately it is very draining to have to listen to it, especially when they are not worth my time .
there is this person i know who has really pissed me off in the past and i no longer care for his shenanigans, so i guess he has taken matters into his own hands to try to get my attention by telling me he keeps almost dying . why does this sound oh too familiar ? oh because the last guy i wasted a year of my life on would spew similar bull shit . if you have yet to notice, i am not exactly the most sympathetic person to turn to . you almost died ? really ? well since it was just almost, and you apparently feel the need to complain about it, i think it is in your best interest to do something with your life so that when you do almost die, you will be more grateful that you are living and you will not feel the need to tell me about your petty problems . and you almost dying because you suffered from a panic attack is entirely your fault . want me to care ? learn to take better care of yourself first . if you are unable to love yourself, how is anyone supposed to know how to love you . oh the joys of attention whore type one - the one that is always in distress .
moving on to attention whore number two - the one that is afraid of being alone, not loneliness, just being alone . this person is the type that has such low self esteem, he clings on to anything that is remotely decent and tries to make the most of it . this is the person i actually feel pity for, but my annoyance for this person greatly outweighs my pity . see this type of person just needs someone around because they are so afraid of being by themselves . therefore they cling on to EVERYTHING . it is like having a puppy dog following you around . this person has to be one of the worst types of attention whores because they are in constant need of reassurance . and because they annoy more than anything, they put themselves into the position they fear most, alone .
attention whore type three; the attention stealer . i am positive you all have a friend/sibling/family member/acquaintance whatever, but i am sure you all know someone like this . this is the type of person where they must upstage you - no matter what . you have that ? well they have THIS . you did that ? well they did THIS . you said that ? well they said THIS . this person has to be one step ahead of whatever you’re doing because they are afraid of becoming insignificant . the root of their problem all comes back to the fact that they are missing something from their life . since they can not have it, they result to attempting to upstage you . fun, right ?
four would have to be the insert-er . this person’s greatest fear is to be an outcast, so their solution to the situation is to simply insert themselves into it . they see it as being able to “adapt” to your situation, but they just end up trying to hard and the attention they receive is more along the lines of dumbfounded confusion .
number five is such an ugly number . so i will stop at four . i know there are more, but i have to study for my final and those are the only types that have been bothering me lately . funny how they all have a problem that could easily be addressed, but since they are too busy trying to gain attention from those around them they dismiss what they’re truly feeling . just because you find an outlet to avoid your true feelings does not mean they will stay dormant for long, you are only harming yourself . try paying attention to yourself long enough before you start seeking for attention in others .
september eighteenth, ‘O9 .
